BABY BREATH

Untungnya gw gak harus berteman dengan perempuan munafik itu.

Sekedar bulletin board terbuka buat kaum hipokrit.

What the hell is her problem anyway??
Why can’t she just stop bothering me??

Perempuan kayak dia cuma jadi sampah buat gw.

You have all the liberty to quote my lines here and publish it in your article. That is how you make your money, right?

So what happen when you are not able to manage your time precisely? Correct. Missing important things.
Is that you who was not able to do so? Or was it something that got in the way caused you losing times?

What the hell had happened today? I went to Puncak today at 10 am. Spent like almost 7 hours just to get some shots. Damn. And then I have appointment at 6.

Sebel.
Baru mulai nulis 5 paragraf tiba-tiba kabel ketendang dan komputer mati. Jadi sekarang mengulang lagi apa yang tadi udah sempet saya tulis. Udah lupa pula apa aja. S**T.

Sesuai judul di atas…move happy or stay sad. Perpisahan setahun yang lalu gak bikin saya jadi mati gaya dong. Sebel iya. Benci ada. Dendam? Hmmm…biasalah semua orang yang pernah disakitin pasti pernah dendam juga. Tapi dendam saya gak lama. Bukan berarti lantas saya baikan dengan mereka yang menyakiti saya. Cuma saja saya berdamai dengan diri sendiri. Mencari sejuk di hati.

Lalu belum terlalu lama saya bertemu dia. Yang mencairkan beku di hati saya, dan mengalirkannya ke palung jiwa terdalam. Ciee…Eh tapi betul lho!

Saya pikir saya gak akan pernah bisa sayang lagi sama orang. Emotionally I have been almost hit on many guys and tried to connect. But it was just not there. It took me like months to believe in him. And he convinced me about the concept of partnership. Relationship. Friendship.

The honesty started us to have an honest and deep relationship. I do not and never want to have another pranks in my life. Dan ketika kejujuran sudah mengawali sebuah hubungan, saya rasa meski pahit akan terasa manis.

He was a stranger to me. Totally stranger. But he is a perfect stranger. An open minded, modest and humble. Funny and smart. Great debate partner. A settle man. A jealous guy. A loving person. An optimistic mind. Spontaneous soul. And good in B*d is a bonus.

For now, my life is even happier since I met Jonathan. Dan dengan dia I choose to move happy forward. For now, I am falling in love with him.

Heaven is not a place, it’s an idea. But it’s very strong idea that if we did not have it we don’t have a hope to live.

What
is Love? How Do You Know If You Have Found The Right
Person?

What is love? Is it something you can
feel? How do people know if they have found the person
they could spend the rest of their lives with? It would
be easier to know if we’ve found this person if we could
know what love is. And this is what I am about to explain to you.

Initially
when we meet someone we like there is probably something
physical attracting us, right? We may feel attracted. Then if
all goes well - you go out, have a good time, and find
you want to spend more time with one another - you may
begin to have more feelings for one another. But is this
love? Time is the answer to all of these questions and
the tester of the relationship.

Keep sex
out of the mix. When sex becomes part of the equation
things become confusing fairly quickly.

If your
relationship is based on sex you are on an unstable
foundation. If your feelings change so will your desire
to have sex, so will your so called feelings of love
with this person and, the same is true for them. Sex
only works if love is the foundation of a marriage
relationship.

Feelings
change and this makes it an unstable foundation for a
relationship as well. A lot of times feelings change
when the bliss of sex has worn off or, the things you
can’t stand about the other person surfaces with more
frequency. Sex will cause you to look past the things
you can’t really live with in another person. And when
sex fails to work for you, all you have left are all
those things that irritate you about your partner. Am I correct?

So what
is love? If you can keep sex from coming into the
picture the time you spend together can help you find
out if you can love the person you’re seeing. You will
learn what their values are. You will learn what makes
them tick and what drives them. You will find out if you
could love them through the time you spend together.

What are
the interests you share? What things are you passionate
about together? Are there things that get on your nerves
- drive you crazy? Can you live with those things? Are
you driven by the same things they are driven by? Do all
these interests that you both share cause you to draw
closer or, do they make you want to spend less time
together? If after you have seen all there is to see in
a person and you are still drawn then you are ready -
Ready for what? -To make a decision.

Love is
not a feeling or an attraction. It is a decision. In all
the things you learn about one another you must weigh
whether or not you can live with those things. Are the
traits in this person the traits you are looking for in
a mate? Do their flaws turn you off to the point that
you will choose not to love at some point? Is there
enough in them that you like and admire for you to make
a decision to love them for the rest of your life? See,
love is a verb. It is an action word. It is something
you decide to do. It is something you make a commitment
to do in good times and bad. In other words you are
deciding after everything that you have seen that you
can still love the person inside.

From the
bible here is a description of love:

(4)Love is patient and kind. Love is not
jealous or boastful or proud (5) or rude. Love does not
demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps
no record of when it has been wronged. (6)It is never
glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth
wins out. (7)Love never gives up, never loses faith, is
always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
(8)Love will last forever..(1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

Thank you Tony.

Metamorfosa.

Gw sedang bermetamorfosa. Apapun artinya. Apapun itu. Paling nggak, gw berubah. Dan gw suka perubahan itu.

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We choose to live, we don’t wanna die. Not now. We choose to love instead of hatred. We choose someone simply because we want her/him. We choose hot coffee rather than an iced tea. We choose freedom instead of prisoned. Freedom never cries. What is choice anyway?

"an inalienable right; the act of choosing and selecting. The birth power of all creatures to choose who is going to be their lover and mate, where and when they like to eat, what they wish to eat. To choose is a right and liberty, to have an alternative option to choose the best or most preferable path or part."

Sometimes, we just don’t agree to one’s choices of his/her own path. Sometimes we see things as we see things. We don’t see things in one’s objective point of view. People say we must respect one’s choices of path. Now I may say, choices are never easy. I hate to choose. But I gotta choose.

No piece fits any other piece without gap or pinch. [Ayutaz, thanks for the words]

Life is about to live it. And love is part of it, with a little piece of heart as an extra. 

Being thin. Or that’s just what my goal is for now. Pengen kurus karena berat badan yang sekarang udah melewati batas toleransi RealTaniaNataya. Pengen kurus karena berat badan yang sekarang menuai kritik dari orang-orang terdekat. Pengen kurus kira-kira turun 10-12kg. Pengen kurus yang kadang-kadang bikin kita keliatan kurang gizi dan kelaparan alias "famine". Atau kita, wanita, melafalkannya menjadi "faaa-meen",- "untuk laki-laki". Cis.

Being thin is not really the issue. But getting fat is not pretty either. I mean, for some of us, women, having those flabs around your tummy are a view to kill. Oh but I won’t let myself get toooo thin like Twiggy, or those fashion model’s size. I wan to lose some weight, and this means I have to watch my diet, calculate how much callories my body must intake. I wish I can stop eating. But I just can’t help myself.

The most important thing I should doing this diet is because I don’t want to buy anymore new clothes!!! My XS and S size are suddenly enlarging to an almost L now. See that? Diet. Diet. Diet.

Mulai dari gak makan nasi, banyakin minum air putih, sampe cuma makan sayuran dan ikan aja…tapi berat badan gak juga turun. Olah raga?? Hmm…udah 6 bulan gak fitnes..

I mean, seberapa gampang kita berkomitmen?? Gak gampang kan?? Oke, gw jadi sedikit ngerti—inget ya, sedikit—kenapa laki-laki suka mendadak mundur kalo udah soal komitmen. Katanya mereka, mendingan jadi bujangan daripada maksain komit. Hah??? Shallow mind.

Tapi emang gak gampang kok buat komit. Contohnya gw. Mau balik lagi rajin fitnes sejak 4 bulan yang lalu, sampe sekarang belum juga terlaksana. Banyak alasan lah kalo gw mau capek-capek ceritain. Hffftt…

Damn. Dan gw paling gak bisa nahan serangan kulkas tengah malam — refridge midnite attack.

Apa nelen pil kurus lebih baik? Biar bangun tidur besok paginya, badan udah kurus??? But, Rome wasn’t built in a day, dugh! It’s sooo bloody hard to get myself commit with my own will.

Hmm…gak sengaja buka yahoonews, ada sedikit artikel tentang Haruki Murakami. Novel "Noruwei No Muri" (Norwegian Wood), berhasil dapetin Franz Kafka award. I told you, novelnya yang satu ini emang layak dibaca.

Here’s a link to the article:

Murakami wins Kafka award

Ada yang punya novel lainnya karya Murakami gak? judulnya apa aja ya?